Syprux says: I ♥ Music

Tuesday, May 8, 2007,3:51 PM

Tuesday

Today is tuesday. Had a quite wonderful opening yesterday . We've managed a sale of 10 tables (well, partially paid bookings if you will...). Kinda funny to see that many committee members all in similar formal black garments (with a tie n all) trying to convince people to give the event a look. Surprisingly (or unsurprisingly). the Pharmacy dept students booked 4 tables almost immediately when they saw of the existence of such a AD&D event. On the other end of the spectrum, ADP students (my dept) were very much reluctant to even to asked to attend the ball. Kinda ironic to view such extreme ends of the spectrum amongst to groups of students who studies less than fifty feet from each other.

In addition to ticketing sales, i had to attend a seminar held by college for a whooping 6 weeks (!) Seminar being named "high achievers course" or something... heaven knows why am I in there anyways. The seminar had students from various depts in my college, namely the ADP, Engineering, Pharm, Dip. Bus, and CIMA.. As usual, such seminars are filled with 'motivaitonal' talks about making us students into nation builders, and also world dominators... maybe not.. and also the usual slew of games that are thrown into the fray. I actually had a moment of self-realization during the playing of games during the event. I had noticed that over the years, i had become less self concious and also less introvert, in a positive light. Some students that attended were very much reluctant to dance, participate in games involving a group, and were generally wooden thru out game time in fear of, i suspect, looking silly to others. I remembered a time when i was just like them. Exactly carbon copies of them. A few years back, you could never get me to willingly partake in such games/activities, such as dances or group games as i wouldnt want to look silly, or also be riddiculed if so happen i stumbled. What i did not realise, is that such actions shouts out loud of being socially inadept, and also the sore lacking of self confidence. My fears of being riddiculed, and refusal to look silly to the participants would actually coerced me into not participating, and ultimately, end up looking silly and riddiculed. Talk about irony, that the cure would be worse than the ailment. I'm sure many of you all have come accross such people in your lives. Painfully shy people whom are very much lacking in self confidence. Coming back to the current setting, the 'me' yesterday, was enjoying myself and having barrels of fun twisting and turning during dance, and also falling into a heap of crumpled up humans in some body puzzle-thinggie, and laughing it off with the others, making new friends, and also getting someone cute's number..or maybe strike that last part off.... Make me wonder sometimes, what took me so long to realise that i was being plain silly and depriving myself of having fun and social interactions in the past. I would not proclaim outright that i am already totoally free fo reservations, as i still need time to warm up to a new crowd/activity with others, but i would dare say that i have become a better person over the years, and have a much healtier does of self confidence in social situations as such as this. If i am to look like a fool, hell im gonna enjoy every minute of it. (come to think about it, i just realised i have no reservations about dancing a slow dance with a guy, as long as it's kept cordial and infused with humour. like wookie for example. xD) Heck, i'm even gonna be dancing all nite long for my upcoming ball(s) that i would be attending, namely my college one and also (tentatively) the prefect's reunion, even tho im not a prefect...but that's a story for another day.

Lianne, this time if we dance, i'll do what i was supposed to do at the last dance ya. (warn u first) :P